I cannot give myself away, that way.

I could not believe how much this song pretty much explains what I feel and I tried to fight every urge to cry. It sucks to be here. I hate every part of the numbing and I hate feeling everything, too. This is seriously what have become of us and we've given it all we've got over and over again. I never saw myself give up but I felt it closing and closing and closing in. It eats me away everyday to be happy because the guilt of being happy without you is so much more stronger. It should have been so simple. You love me, I love you, we'll be happy together but the days are so dark sometimes and I never see us smile like how we used to. Pillows damp by the end of the night and every morning was waking up to a nightmare from dreams of being happy and reality is worse than what could have ever been expected. How did it go from the opposite to here? I was tired. I was always tired and I desperately needed hope from anything I could get it out of. It never came. Like I said, I did not leave because you hurt me, I could probably stand all of it. We were falling apart, I did not want to sit there and watch it happen.

Savannah Outen has always been my favorite on YouTube, she's only my age and she's super talented, this song coming from her could not have been any better.


Bet you want, what I wanted baby
Looking back
Don't you think that maybe, you were wrong?
I better never cross your mind
Rewind
Look at us, just a shadow falling across the floor
I'm not calling to you anymore
I cannot give myself away, that way

What've you done, what've I done
What've we both become, baby?
I don't know what to say, oh


Did we go, a little bit too far?
How did we get off track?
Look around, look at where we are
Now we can't take it back
Too late, what have we spoken?
All the love and the laugh
Look around, everything broken
Now we can't take it back,

Just enough, let me in and then you
Made it rough, that's a game I thought that, I could win
Said no one knows you like I do, it's true

What've you done, what've I done
What've we both become, baby?
I don't know what to say, oh

Did we go, a little bit too far?
How did we get off track?
Look around, look at where we are
Now we can't take it back!
Too late, what've we spoken?
All the love and the laugh
Look around, everything broken
Now we can't take it back

Yeah, we can't take it back, can't take it back...

Close your eyes, breathe me in, remember when, yeah
Blazing fire, across the sky, remember then?

Ooooh, no I can't take it back
Oh, did we go, a little bit too far?

Oooh, look around, look at where we are(Look around were we are)
(Oooh)Now we can't take it back!
Too late, what've we spoken?
All the love and the laugh
(Too late)Look around, everything broken
(It's too late)Now we can't take it back

Hmm, yeah
Look around, look at where we are.
Now we can't take it back

xoxo.