You would.

The thing about us is that...

You won't remember and I won't forget.
I want attention but you don't care.
Then again, opposites attract, and broken hearts retract.
and sometimes I just hate everything about you, especially the way you act.
And then I hate myself because sometimes I love you for the same exact reasons.
And I don't understand why I got to be so gullible.
Why I always have to answer your phone calls
and why I always smile at you when I'm mad
Why I can't stay mad
and why you're always on my mind.
We weren't even anything at all
Just some fake ass two-day booty call.
you wont even remember anything at all.
You wont even feel anything at all..
AND YOU WON'T SAY ANYTHING AT ALL.
Not even a text
All you wanted was sex.
Not that you even got it
I'm just saying, I thought you were better than that.
Wait no I didn't.
Now, you're everywhere!
On my facebook notifications.
On my msn popping up and down.
And my frikken friends' display pictures.
Was it always that way?
Howcome I never noticed that.
Whatever.
Summer fling.
Don't mean a thing.
Right?
You're just really hot, that's all.

8 tingz I hate about you.

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now that I got that out of my system.
THREE DAYS TIL SCHOOL YAY!!
I started blog.tv like 2 days ago because I was looking at VenetianPrincess's blog.tv and then I randomly found this really hot guy on it (blog.tv/People/DisposableReality) so then I made one for myself and ended up blogging with Dee, (she was on it for ages, it kinda made me cranky cause I had work at 9. And she slept over.) But yeah, last night I was on it til 5 by myself, eew pedophiles. Well, I guess I put it on myself to get those. But yeah, co-hosting with Patrick was funny. Talking about wendys. And I need a boob reduction because they don't even listen to what I say. They just look straight at my boobs. Anyway. today i woke up at 1:03 because since I slept so late. I had work at 2:00 and then I was supposed to be off at 10. But we had shortage of people and I was forced to stay until 11. That was a 9 hour shift and I am DEAD BEAT. I get home, my parents were cleaning my room and didn't finish cleaning it, so all my stuff are on my bed and I was just thinking of everything that reminded me about Andrew so then I went on LJ. Even though Im really really tired. Can't you see? it's affecting my writing skills, i can't talk with fancy words. I have like a brain of an 8th grader right now I can't even use big words. Which I usually try doing. Anywya, I'm going to sleep, I'm going to Buffalo with Joaqui's family tomorrow, and I swear I keep on seeing Dee's picture (beside my laptop) blinking. I think I really am tired.

SCHOOL IN TWO DAYS (L)(L)

xoxoxooxoxoxo

Dang boo.

For those confusing days, when you miss him, and want nothing
more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass, sometimes its better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt. Remember the times you cried, and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that.

When "your song" comes on the radio, turn the station.

When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off.

When he tries coming to your house, dont answer the door.

Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the crap he was.

Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasnt him, and realized that once again, he hadnt called when he said he was going to.

One day, you'll find a guy whose worth all the tears, but he wont make you cry.

You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will.

Its gonna hurt like crap, and its going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal.

~Cristina Gumapac
idk if she wrote that, but that's GENIUS.

xoxo.

Still the memory of you, marks everything I do

IM SCARED FOR TOMORROW
HONESTLY I'M THINKING OF IT RIGHT NOW AND I'M SHAKING.
AND MY HEART'S BEATING SOOOOO FAST.
I AM
SO
SCARED.

I DONT KNOW IF THIS IS GOOD
OR BAD.
I'M SO SCARED.
SO
SO
SO SCARED.

xoxo.

Honestly, some hook ups are definitely worth it. But I woke up this morning...

Okay rephrase that. I didn't even sleep last night. I have a theory... Well cause I noticed that this happens all the time. When I have a lot of beer, I can't go to sleep. When I have a lot of liquor I fall asleep 2 hours max. So whatever.

I ditched work yesterday pretending the Boss told me to come at 3:00 when she really told me 12. My manager called and asked why I wasn't there and I said... well, the HEAD manager told me to come at 3. I got away with it. It gave me time to fiddle with my new laptop, WOOT.
I got off work at 8, and loafted before I took a shower.

Vanessa [Velasco] came at around 9:30. We walked to Lobo's house and got lost. Twice. He had to pick us up, half drunk (he walked) but Vanessa got scared a bit because Lobo likes her and he was saying some.. things. Anyway, party was bomb tings.

I haven't been sober one weekend of this fucken summer, and I really wish I stayed sober at least once. If anything, I know I don't do weed, but that doesn't make being an alcoholic any better, and I am completely aware of that. But like any pothead that loves weed. I love alcohol.

1 beer: s'all good. 2: give me another one. 3: sure, one more. 4: why not. 5: "Vanessa, I'm already on my fifth one and we've only been here an hour and a half." 6: "Nikka stop."

6 --Jordan Nichols : VERY BAD MISTAKE. WTF WAS I THINKING. ON THE FUCKEN CURB TOO.

7: "HASTINGS YOU FUCKEN DRANK MY BEER!!!"


8: "just one more kiss."
Andrew Hastings?!?!?!??!

8 1/2: YO PHIL, YOU LOOK LIKE NATHAN SCOTT.

Phil Boroniec?!?!?!?


I should make a confessions of a teenage alcoholic.
Cause seriously.
I could probably make millions.
HONESTLY.


I don't wanna jinx anything so, I will add further on with this entry when... things happen.



xoxo.

When you love someone and they break your heart, don't give up on love.

So yesterday was really fun :)
Dee slept over and she left around 11, we took bomb videos. I went for like a mile run. More like mile walk. Then Dianne and Carly came over, we tanned for a little bit. I made Miley Cyrus hater pictures. But I really DO like her. I just think she's pathetic sometimes. I have a love-hate relationship with her.
Anyway...
TWO WEEKS TIL SCHOOL.
Wow...

I'm looking for laptops today (YN)

xoxo

je t'aime

Oh My.

I DIDN'T EVEN GET THEIR NAMES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



im in love.

xoxo.

YAY MONTREAL TOMORROW :)

C'est bien la vie.
^^ that's my next tattoo :)

X-EFFIN-O.

and let me cry, all the pain inside

I guess we're back here again
Staring at each other
trying to compromise
and behind each lies
I see your eyes
And they tell me the truth
about me and you


We both know
we should just let it go
so let me say this
once and for all
and let me cry
all the pain inside
of the memories of you and i
it was good while it lasted
it was time well wasted
so let me say this
once and for all
we can't do this anymore.



I guess, we're back where we started
You look me in the eyes
And tell me we'll be fine
But the music of you and me
has already died


We both know
we should just let it go
stop the apologies
and let me say this
once and for all
and let me cry
all the pain inside
of the memories of you and i
it was good while it lasted
so let me say this
once and for all
we can't do this anymore.

If I told you I loved you would you hold it against me ?

Past few days have been kinda rush/blur. I got a tattoo on Friday, and I will die if my parents find out. Breaking Dawn on Friday was great bonding times with Martikka, Dee and Dianne. I really need to stop shopping too!!!!!!!

I've been watching some Filipino dvds just because my parents think I can't speak or understand Filipino anymore so theyre shoving it down my throat now. So one full day of that stupid teleserye mama jamma that is SERIOUSLY boring and OVERLY dramatic. Boy loves girl. But no one kisses because that's only in the finale. Everyone dies. Well the good people die. Oh but wait, she comes back alive 5 episodes later!!! Here comes the "Sister" and then we find out she's not the real sister, everyone screams and cries. The boy who loves the girl still loves the girl but they can't be together....SOOOOO FILIPINO
we all know the story.

But I completely forgot how good looking JERICHO ROSALES was.

xoxo.